Laugh Out Loud

Friends come and go. There are some, you wish that you haven’t known at all. These people which you offer so much of your trust then all of a sudden they’ll just throw it like a piece of shit for some whatever none-sense reason/s. Actually I am pertaining to single person which is I don’t to elaborate about “HIM” no more. Anyway,he was given a CHANCE to prove himself that he will not do any STUPIDITY anymore. In fact, he even made a vow and some sorts of promises together with HIS FAMOUS CROCODILE TEARS, which he stresses that he’s a CHANGED person. (which I highly doubted from the start. sorry ha, I may be too harsh on my words.)However, due to some humanitarian reason “cge, okay give HIM a second chance as per my ASHAMS friend explained to me” so, okay another chance. Just recently I was told that there’s a “defraud” issue among our closest friends which again, involve him and it didn’t came as a surprise to me at all. What I can’t stomach is he’s doing it over and over again. I came to a conclusion that it will take so much EFFORT, TIME and COURAGE for him to turn back on his bad vices and have a change of heart for REAL.

I do not need an apology.

I do not need promises.

I DO NEED, HOWEVER, SINCERITY.

Say what you mean and mean what you say. If you can’t be generous with your words, at least be HONEST: even if others do not, even if others cannot, and even if others will not. ALWAYS BEAR IN MIND “THE GOLDEN RULE”.

ang AHAS pakainin mo man sa sarili mong palad/kamay, dadating ang araw na manunuklaw at manuklaw ito.

ello people!!! I’m
not into blogging lately,however I’ve been so busy reading books that I
loaned at San Francisco Public Library. In fact I’m done with four
books already and there’s two more to finish. I have read the following:

The True Story and Analysis of Aquino Assassination - which I purchased at EBAY; 223 pages
by: Gerald N. Hill ( a very detailed and well explained book.)

Waltzing with a Dictator - which I also bought at EBAY; 549 pages
by: Raymond Bonner (I recommend to read this book after THE CONJUGAL DICTATORSHIP)

Memories of A Hero - I just loaned it at SF Public Library; 115 pages
by Cynthia Sycip

The Conjugal Dictatorship of Imelda and Ferdinand Marcos(by:
Primitvo Mijares; 499 pages) - which I terribly had a hard time finding
it. After a few research about the book and it’s author I had the
conclusion to own one, since I find it so interesting and I know it’s
worth to read. So I rushed at amazon and Ebay.com which took me, a day
or two to find the cheapest price of it. Unfortunately the lowest is 30
bucks plus tax and shipping. wtf?! Then, I realized that I still have
another option/s. So I took chances to go online and logged at  SF
Public Library.com luckily, they have one at EXCELSIOR district. So I
went at Excelsior after work to pick up my book and for the first time
I was holding it with my bare hands. I am not exaggarating but, I was
so happy!  knowing that soon I can enjoy reading it.

Lastly, I still have two more books to read though I started reading the book of Nick Joaquin “THE AQUINOS OF TARLAC”. The soonest time I’m done with it I will immediately started reading the book of Hermie Rotea “MARCOS LOVEY DOVEY” which I think interesting too. Hopefully I can get a copy of the following books:

- Testimony from A Prison Cell
by: Benigno Aquino

- Reports of the Fact-Finding Board on the Assassination of Sen Benigno S. Aquino Jr
by: Mr & Ms Publications

- NINOY: The Willing Martyr
by: Alfonso Policarpio

- Ninoy Aquino - The Man, The Legend
by: Asuncion David

It’s been almost 2 weeks when the new year start, I’m still at the point of gathering my thoughts on how would I describe my year 2008. “GOOD” and “NOT SO GOOD” is definitely part of it. So let see…

Good… FUN… Hafee Memories of 2008

One of the highlights in the year 2008 was my 17 day vacation in Philippines (Cavite City). I had chance to see my good old pals and relatives as well and to sum it up, indeed I had a great time with them. Sabi nga nila di ba, there’s no place like home, which is TRULILoOo.

Right after that vacation, I was sent to Edmonton and Calgary Canada to work and stayed there for a couple of days. I was able to roam around and saw few landmarks in there such as the Canadian Rockies and the Calgary Tower that gives me so much J.O.Y! On that trip, I met some of my colleagues named John, Jill and Bennett from New York and Arizona state.

“Something happen when you least expecting it” - indeed, this is true, few years back I must admit that there’s a rift between me and my friend Choy. Due to uncontrollable circumstances, this things pull us apart. 3 years later, unexpected things happened… we reconcile, the rest is history! Thus, many many thanks to Mark slash Macoi who paved the way for US.

Mid-way of 2008 my Tita Susan from PA visited us for a 10 day vacation, my mom and her organized a birthday bash for my Dad. It’s kinda overwhelming cause a number of people showed up and had fun on his birthday. Then my youngest brother celebrated his 5th birthday, so do my Tita Susan, Tita Almer, Tita Purie, Mamang, Ninang, Daddy Pons, Kikay, Michie, Mocs, Macoi, Rams, Tita Mel, Jep, Jenna, Ate Liz, my new found friend Poyan, Joann and Joanah.

Last quarter (parang basketball lang! lolz) of 2008, I was able to get in touch with my two old friends Jenna and Sherry, but we fondly call them Jheng and Ehyie. Last November 15, nagkita din kame after 5 years. A lot of things changed, especially to Ehyie but one thing remains the same ung pagiging loka-loka nameng dalawa, from then on di na kame maawat sa pagchichikahan sa fone. Si Jenna, I seldom talk to her kasi ung work schedule namen di magtagpo, but we keep in touch from time to time, at pag nauusap den kame walang katapusan. hahaha
Then, I just recently had my Nikon D40x finally! eto talaga ung pinakaasam ko! Kaya sobrang thank yousssss talaga to Tita Purie and Kuya Elmer ko hahahha(sa mga lens :D).

More than anything else, there are few more things I should be thankful for… cyempre sa family, relatives and closest friend ko, I’m glad that we’re still intact, not perfect but happy. Ang work ko, bread and butter ko yan kaya dapat akong magpasalamat lolz!, Lastly kay GOD that made all these thing possible. He’s been so generous and loving to me since the day 1. I know I dont have much slash nothing to offer, however I would like to give all the THANK YOUssSssSsss and all the praises to him. I couldn’t ask for more at ang masasabi ko lang “I WON’T LAST THE DAY WITHOUT YOU” *winking*.

“NOT SO GOOD”

I don’t want to get into details about that anymore, all that matters to me is what I have learned and benefit from it. During those NOT SO GOOD moments, I’ve come to realize that:

1. wag maging INDENIAL sa mga nangyayare sa paligid-ligid: As long as we continue to deny and not to accept, we cannot solve our problems, we cannot change for the better. Akin to deny is rationalization-making alibis and reason to evade responsibility. Another postponement–putting off what must be faced now.

2. I’ve learned and accept to LET GO of things which is not really meant for me Lesson: wag ipilit slash pilitin ang ayaw!

3. Now, alam ko na ang pagkakaiba ng ginto tsaka tanso (na merong kalawang lolz!) kasi nga ako’y natanso or I may…say ako’y nagpantanso hahahaha.

4. I’ve come to realized that there are too many people whom I’ve taken for granted at some point in my life, because I was too busy pursuing my own agenda, which it turned out a MESS at the end, SORRY.

5. No turning back, always move forward; Life is too short to be bitter(sabe ni Ehyie :D), just get BETTER na lang instead lolz!

6. I’ve realized that there is such thing as ENOUGH and TOO MUCH.

7. and learned that no matter how you love a person, you cannot escape from reality that… that person has the capacity to hurt you.

8. I’ve realized that there’s people who choose to be proud than to be humble, to be defiant than to be HONEST, to be tough than to be FORGIVING.

9.Most of USthink that the MOST PAINFUL thing in life is LOSING the one we VALUE MOST. The TRUTH is, the most painful thing is LOSING YOURSELF in the process of VALUING SOMEONE or SOMETHING TOO MUCH and FORGETTING the YOU too are SPECIAL…

10. Don’t expect TOO MUCH that you will be rewarded the same amount of love, respect and trust that you have given on a person.

11. I’ve realized that there are people who cannot accept CRITICISM, DON’T have the guts to ADMIT their FAULTS and DOESN’T have the decency to say SORRY. (too bad ).

12. Now more than ever, I’ve learned to forgive and love a person, even if that person is not doing anything good to me.

upadate: Presidential Election 2008

This is my very first time to witnessed the Presidential Election of USA. Though I haven’t participated on the votation itself, it is indeed a chance of a lifetime to witnessed this such historic election here. As they say that Pres. Barack Obama from the Democrat Party, is the very first BLACK PRESIDENT who’ll live in a WHITE HOUSE :D.

I was amazed how the SYSTEM OF ELECTION works here, I couldn’t imagine that it would be as smooth as it is and the result will be given right away.

At around 8:00 pm PST, I guess Pres. Barack Obama garnered an 280+ electoral votes which made him the 44th President of the USA. One day of votation and before midnight, American people knows who was the newly elected President, isn’t it amazing?! however, after a few minutes announcing who won, Sen. John Mc Cain, finally conceded of his opponents victory which professed his sportmanship for the entire process of their candidacy. This is how the election day here ended without a CRIME, RALLY, PROTEST and CHEATING.

As I blogged my very 1st experienced of election here, at the back of my mind wishes and wondered if this system of the election will ever happen there in Philippines. Oh well, only the time can tell. On the lighter note, having this one of a kind experienced today is very informative on my part, I’ve learned a lot of things that both my colleagues, relatives and friend have taught me to the entire concept of election procedure here… and it’s quite amazing!!! Thank you people!

Since it’s already 9 before Christmas I just want to share some thoughts from one best article which I religiously read every week. Hopefully you’ll like this too the way I do…

Christmas is about a God who went out of His way to get involved with us. In preparation for Christmas, let us all go out of our way to meet our God, and present to Him a humble, contrite and grateful heart. Let us also go out of our way to reach out to one another, especially to the poor and powerless, and to our enemies and those who have wronged us. And let us go out of our “usual” ways and flee from the roads that lead us to sin and wrongdoings.

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A Christmas moment happened as I was writing this column. A family that has just lost their mother dropped by and asked me to join them. And I’m glad I did. Perhaps we can do some letting go and letting God this Christmas, and drop our personal agenda and concerns to be present to other people. Remember, Christmas is not so much about presents as presence.

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Have you noticed how beautiful the stars are at night? Have you experienced the serenity of cool December mornings? If you have not, maybe you have been too caught up in the rush and have forgotten what Christmas is all about. Slow down and take time. Look inside your heart, and there find God. Look around you, and there, too, find your God. I am one with you in finding God in our hearts, in nature and in people, especially this Christmas.

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Life is indeed full of happy and sad events. Don’t give up on your faith for God will keep you afloat. Just remember to call on Him

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Think about it: A trash can is just an unnoticed and insignificant item for most of us, but for the street children, it is itself a source of life from where one can find the next meal. This Christmas, please be very responsive to the many poor and hungry people around us.

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By the way, many of us have our Christmas wishes. Fine. But please don’t forget to ask also the Birthday Celebrator His birthday wish. Is there anything He is asking from you and me? A bad habit that needs to be given up? A relationship that needs to be healed? A person to love more? Someone to forgive? A blessing to be shared, perhaps? Yes, let’s ask Him, after all, it’s His birthday, remember?

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It’s nine days before Christmas. Think about it: It’s Christmas once again, and we are still alive. It means you and I still have a mission in life. Let us not waste our lives pursuing worldly riches and comforts. Let no one be hurt as we pass by this earth.

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Think about this too: There were people who were with us last Christmas, and are no longer with us this Christmas. And, there are people who are with us this Christmas who may not be with us anymore next Christmas.

Last week is been so hard for me to deal with… There is a lot of good, happy, sad and bad memories to look back. Saying goobye is always been so hard for me to do, whether is it only for temporary or for a lifetime goodbyes… Before that week ended, I thought that it’s gonna be happy, like how all it started, but it’s not.

Having precious time with the people i know, whom I loved dearly and I can consider as one of my few TRUE friends is indeed a great joy for me. We laughed until we cry and we hugged until we say our goodbye, we share our deepest thoughts about everything, it’s imeasurable, no words can define to all the emotions i felt deep inside during those days, but as look back I realized how I missed my BestFriends back at home… I was wishing that we were together to share that magic moment I had… There is a lot of word left unsaid, there is a lot of question left behind, but I strongly believe that Special Moment for us will come, it may not be now, but I know it will be soon and in his time… all things will fall into places according to his will. I’m gonna hold on to that… no matter how long will it take, no matter how hard it will be

When I got home after that vacation it’s monday, around 7:00pm my sister went in to my room and to spoke to me… uttering the bad news.. She said ate, Mommy Jane is gone! I can’t talk nor I can’t move from where i was standing!!! The tears started to fall and my eyes started to swell. I know it’s gonna happen, but not soon. I’m not ready yet, I wasn’t prepared! My heart is in pain,deep sorrow and sadness. I felt that I got stabbed straight through my heart. I call her STAR. Try to look at the star from here up there, it’s seems so unreachable and if you will look afar its seems so little, so tiny… but once you get closer you will see the difference, it’s bigger, it’s brighter and there is so much to offer, like her My Mommy Jane. If you don’t know her may be you’ll think she’s ordinary but once you get to know her, she’s a woman of wisdom. She taught me a lot from crazy, simple, little, complicated things in life and even to the most extraordinary thing that I thought I couldn’t do. She can bring out what’s best in me and she loves me for who I am and who I am not. I was amazed by her love, lucky me to experienced that from her!!! She’s there when I thought that no one is around.. what a relief for me, having her on those crucial days of my life. *sigh*

God is real good for giving me a chance to know Mommy Jane, two years is not that long, however, I will look back on those precious days as meaningful as it was, from the very first moment I hear her voice to the last day we said goodbye.

And now as I look in the sky each night I see millions of star shining so bright and I know it’s her. She’s everywhere and reminds me that whenever I’m in dark, whenever I get lost and there is nothing left for me to do but to look up. She’s always there. No matter where she is right now, she’s always always have special place in my heart and I know, I’m gonna MISS her so much.

But like what they said… if somebody leave, for sure there is a replacement for that empty space!!! After a long period of time… I said the word HELLO to a person, and we became friend, her name is Jane I met her on my recent trip at LA and she’s one helluva lady… Isn’t it ironic?! lolz! watever!!!!

hiyaaah! I wasn’t able to blog since I came from Universal Studios, I was so trip coz of the long trip and also from walking from 10am to midnight lolz, chillin, screaming while ridin the Mummy roller coater ^_^ and in Jurrasic water ride. D first day we came in LA, we go to church, then right after the mass my and mg support team goes to a THAI restau which is located close were we stayed :D. I was able to meet SpOnGeBoB, FiOnA, sHrEK, FrAnKeNsTeiN, wOoDyWooDpEcKEr and some of aNimaL’s from the MovIe EVAN ALMIGHTY =), me and together with my Tito’s, Tita’s, cuz and my sis, did a ride for Universal Studios Tour, I got some video clips from inside and was able to see the SET of GRINCH, PSYCHO (1986), The Mummy, KingKong, Jurrasic Park Movie, the house in desperate housewife, the cars in Fast and the Furious and special effect the they used on those movies =) I also catched the BAckDraft which shows how the do the Fire effect and how dangerous it was